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See the Sea

I, should I say, a fan of the sea. Not just the beach but the big blue ocean. The salty hard water does make you burn easily in the sun, yet I just loved the feeling. Only once may be, that I have ever got on a boat, and went towards the deep sea where I could not see the shore(almost). Few of them whom I went with just jumped in to the great big water and swam a bit, near the boat. I being the coward I used to be, did not take that chance but had myself tightly wrapped, being afraid pf falling into the sea.
And now thinking back my tracks I do regret that I didn't really take that risk but looking forward to get my self wet in the ocean.
Paleontologists states that the life has started from the sea. And over the zillion years passed we found land, got boundaries, got named. fought for clan, rebel for race and slaughter each other.
Tsunami, melting ice at Antarctica might stop few of us and remind us that we may actually do something for the human survival. But will we actually have the capacity to change any one? or anything? or should I just forget all this and mind my own small world, face my own trouble and not think about the future at all?
The ocean is big but still the hard land has build boundaries trying to rule the sea. And some of us just dieing here to dip in the sea for our pleasure.

My Cheesy poem for you

I sound cheesy
I sound sly
but deep inside
I love you so much

Take my hand
you will feel safe and calm
Trust me when I say
That I love you so much

Look into my eyes
see what I am trying to say
Do not worry a bit
I love you so much

Lets run away
build our own castle
Lets Chase that sweet escape
Trust me I love you and like Cheese


Just read a blog post on cheesy songs felt like writing my own.. But I beleive its okay to be cheesy once in a while when you are in love.. this is for all the lovers out there.. and also to those of us, the heartbroken ones too...

Am I too old to Dance?

Got this clip from a friend of mine. She just proved that age is not a barrier to do ya thing. Not that i can dance like her. Well may be I have few crazy moves :)
But still I am not going to worry about growing old and getting wrinkles because I can always be the bell of the ball once I know those steps :)

Apocalypto and What I think

Simple!!!

Its a great movie. Hats of to Mel Gibson. I have not read any reviews of this movie and nor i have heard many talk about it. Distance memory reminds me that one of my movie lover friends actually recommended this as a star rated movie. Well thanks to Star movies i had the chance to actually watch the masterpiece. Each second passed i was drowned by the fact that Apacalypto actually talks about the modern society.

How much as human beings living in a tiny planet, so brutally kill one another,

allow slavery among the civilized society

hope for your survival

and the better yet how much love keeps your strength and energy.

This is the type of movie which you would not watch again, because by watching once you will remember the feeling forever..

love it I love it !!!

A world without forms to fill

I really hate filling up forms, online, offline and specially those stack of papers you get to fill as applications to a university, institute, company and so on.
they all start with your name, address date of birth, marital status,sex(ahem gender) and the best part is, the purpose of applying (may differ as per your requirement). Then again I can not really blame it. There are so many of us living and we need many details to distinguish one another. (So remarkable how the world creator separates us by simple details)
Anyways I got so annoyed recently due to the fact that i have to fill a whole set of new forms because i happen to change into a different branch of a well established bank of SL. I mean I was a customer of theirs for quite a few years and don't they have a record of mine. And why should i start all over again as a new account holder? Well being very optimistic of every peril i get into i finally came to a agreement with myself that I am not a VIP and till I become one to shut up and fill the form.
And again today I happen to fill another, i might add "an extra ordinary" form. In here other than my signature I actually had to keep my thumb print. Well not to worry I didn't kill any one and it was not a police form. An old method that still works to identify the uniqueness of one another. But still I had to fill that form and I just hated it.
I think(s) that there should be a centralized place where all our data is stored. From birth details to medical history and favourite hobby to most watched TV channel. From there with a secured access code (or what ever) necessary parties can get our details to verify our existence. Ah this is hard at the initial stage but if some one care do that I will be free from filling forms :)

Am I stuborn cuz I have a mind of my own?

I was known to be the most stubborn one in my family and my friends have crowned me as "Miss Stubbornness" many a time. And then again some have build up their trust on me so much that they would even leave their child(or boyfriends,girlfriends. siblings) under my supervision, believing in perhaps my stubbornness which would help me to come in to my sensibility rather quickly in a given situation. Some past incidents have helped them to come in to that conclusion.



Well there are two kinds of people, the world around me (which includes you) and ME, right in the centre "Me". Me who write this blog letting out my feelings and my version of the world around me. Must stress again that I am in the middle, in the middle being trampled, loved cared and hated by all the "yous" out there. And I with a mind of my own interpret certain situations and might embrace or repel from that. So in the process people around me will feel that I am actually very stubborn, I am so stubborn that I might have disregard your dignity and and acted MY OWN. well you nor I can actually help it, I will be stubborn because I have a mind of my own which like to think act and perhaps fall down and to stand up.



Besides I am still learning to live this life. If some one always tells me how to do everything right and one day if none of you around how will I survive? So let me do things my way and let me be responsible for my own actions...



I love responsibility...

Your child

I am your child, looking up at you
With my heart in sorrow and pain
Cuz I do not know how to make you happy
I am your child can’t you see
I brought the stars for you
Laid on the table and asked you to look
“That’s not what I want”
So I cried and asked you to help me
I am you child can’t you see
Painted the world for you
Using colors of the world
You looked you laughed
Said I am so “childish”
But I am your child can’t you see
Made castle with dream and hope
Painted it with red
To show my love
You stepped on it
And now I am too weak to do anything
I am your child
Who needed to be loved by you…

Small world

Scenario 1

Today I was surprised, the girl who sat next to me in my transport is a very good friend of mine. Whom I had being sharing lot of gossip, poems and many many more via emails. Well She is a Friend of mine in Fakebook (why I call that, is another story) and I have seen her photos, but me being the person who never remembers some ones face could not recognized until she pointed me out. For a month we have being in the same transport but never got a chance to talk. Well how small the world we live in?

Scenario 2

And day I had to answer the door at my work place and this guy entered asking for my boss. To see he was my long-time-no see friend. Whom I have sat for AL's. Wow that was a surprise

Scenario 3

A Friend of mine who had seen a cousin of her, was about to call on his mobile was stopped by her other Friend who was sitting next to her. Apparently her cousin was the boss of her friend.

Scenario 4

well for now only three scenarios that is coming in to my mind. Had a office out yesterday and my whole body+head is paining.

Cheers!!!

What is the best medicine for a headache?
watching Mamma Mia???? oh yeah !!!!

Mosquitoes that most-kill-toes…

Well not only the toes but most of your body. Especially the shoulders. Yessss the shoulders. Well each night I wrap myself from head to toe and go to sleep just so I can escape from this mos-attack, but then Sri Lanka being a hot country I have to come out of that protection and face my night-time enemies. Well one might suggest using a mosquito net. But that is a big NO NO to me. Then the mosquito coil or the mat.. ahh they just give me headaches. Once this person suggested applying “Siddalepa” to you body and notice how the mosquitoes run away from you. Well the idea was not that bad, the only problem was that I wanted to runaway from me.

But still when, you having the best dream, they just had to stop by near your ear and sing their hearts out. I mean com’on don’t they know that it can be so deadly. They are playing a life and death game there. I mean I am a deadly weapon when I wave my arms around.

So much that they do really bother me at my sleep, I just wanted to find out few things about this insects, rather annoying pain in the neck(shoulder) insects.Mosquitoes are coming from a family called Culicidae. And do you know that the word is that mosquitoes have being around over 30 million years old But all throughout they happen to do the same thing.. bite the hell out of us. Feed on our blood and give us sleepless nights..

(If you recall In Jurassic Park, they created dinosaurs with gens inside a mosquito who happened to be fed on a dinosaur’s blood and blah blah blah)
They travel 1/2Km per hour and go up to 10 km during night time. And at a stretch they fly to 1-4 hours. Wow I can’t even sit in one place for that long. May be they do that so they can have a different dish for a change

And I find this rather amusing and ironic, the real predator (harsh word? No I do not think so) is the female mosquito that sucks the blood so we rank them as the most deadly.
They rest in cool places and wait till the evening to hunt us down. When it comes to cool places they can even lay eggs in watery surfaces, and sometime the eggs survive though the place is dried up for a certain period. Well if we think about this more, we ourselves make the biggest mistake, by allowing the mosquitoes to breed in places like this.
So let us all join hands and keep our environment clean and tidy so I CAN HAVE A GOOD NIGHT SLEEP hahaha

And you too

Cheers!!!

go on and on and we talk

Have you ever stopped for a while and tried to figure what we were being talking at any given time. Well at least whether. at least we stick to the initial topic.

This type of talking happen when you get together with bunch of friends colleagues and any other combination. Today our initial topic was "politics" ah the very subject that i would avoid but heat up in certain circumstances. Then Mr. Obama dominated the field and came to different beliefs of religions. Then talked about hymns and what their meanings are, which ended up analyzing the lyrics of certain songs that can be heard in radio. Then the gossip.. yeah the Hollywood gossip (guess we know more about Barrymore than she does). Last but not least the favourite TV programs we watch was a hit.

ah I love talking about politics now, cuz it leads to different stories..

hey that was not the end.. but some of the stuff are not for you to know :)

To office or the bull

I was on my way to office, to notice that there was a bull, seated with both two front legs were bleeding, obviously met with an accident in the morning. The creature was looking sad and hurt and a pail of water was next to him. Which it did not indicate in any way that it would have helped the creature at all. Lot of blood was on its body, and perhaps it was unable to move.
Well as all we being human with emotions running free, my colleagues who were in the office transport was giving their own assumption of the situation.

“some driver must have hit the poor thing…idiot does not even no how to driver..”

“these type of idiots should be punished…”

“Wonder who gave the license (driver’s) to them…”

“Must have happened in the morning… so then he ran away… selfish man…”

“ah did you notice the way a man was standing few feet away from the incident?...I think it’s he who have done it… did you notice the sly smile…IDIOT”


Well me being the observer was really amazed.

· How much we human pity the bull who was hurt?
· How some of us eat the flesh of it if the given incident is different?
· And how we assumed that a motor vehicle did made this creature to get hurt?
· How we tend to curse at people who we have not seen or heard of?
· And how much you get blamed for just standing there at a point of an incident?


And then let talk about me

I was not really in a hurry to work (I am one of the early comers :) ) yet I did not stop by and even tried to help the creature. But now I am blaming someone for criticizing the incident. And secondly lets say that I really got down and tried to help, what am I suppose to do? Who will I try to contact? And given the chance the owner of the bull was there? Will he welcome my help or will he feel hostile? Because he might feel that I am trying to own his bull. (its human nature not to trust another human, when it comes to your belongings)


All I know is there was a problem, I wanted to help but I did not. Just passed it and came back to my world of comforts. Am I human or what?

Falling for you..

To fall for you,
I tried hard not to
Yet I am weak
Standing next you
Listening to your breath and soul
Showing me the beauty of life
Asking me to smile with you
Can’t you see I am not doing so good?
I am falling for you
Alas, you are my best friend

Certain things are captured only as memories.. for a life time

As human beings, the greatest things we are capable of having, are memories. Happy sad and even memories of rather ordinary things. A Normal incident might be easy to forget. However the happy moment, even sad moments residues some where in our minds.
Also there are certain times that we see such magnificent structures of the Creator of the world. Yes I am just obsessed about the sky and can not really take my mind and heart in appreciating its wonderful colours and the art. Today i saw one such moment. I took my camera out tried to captured moment. The sun was blazing its glory, white clouds were swirling around. And a dark cloud just came and closed the sun forming the bright glowing silver line. Well when finally my camera switched it self that moment was over. Just occurred to me how i missed that moment yet how i remembered the details of it.
This made me think. The junctions of my life that I do not have photos or any tangible things to tell another person this really happened, yet memories... I have the memories.
Memories which I would like to share. Yet no one will really understand the true emotions that i have linked with them.

well Dumbledore please teach me how to extract my memories and bottle them so I can share them with others!!!

I just love my memories... good and bad

Old school

Sounds familiar? hmm yeah thought so

Watched "Who's line is it anyway?" hosted by Drew Carey and comedians (really talented) Ryan Stiles, Colin Mochrie, Wayne Brady and few more comedy actors playing the game-show. The jokes are so real and classy. Well currently I am really addicted to it.

One day these funny(I mean genuinely hilarious) guys enacted the 90's old school. It was pretty simple and really brought up how much we think certain phrases we used when we were schooling, certain rituals we thought were cool and happening back then are really not that cool any more. Well the scene was three "happening dudes" meet up, and they discuss the cool things they did. Well it was not really discussing cuz no one was saying any activity but say to each other

"man i so did wanna do that "YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN""

ohh yeah yeah I once did so and made it so real "YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN"

well the above quotes may not be exactly the same.but I got to emphasise that all did actually say to each other was "YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN" and non of them knew what they really mean.

When watching this it just reminded me of my school days. well not long ago I actually went to have education, to a school where all types of girls were having the same education. Well some of us did good and some of us get to face the bad side of life. Yet once in a while it reminds us how much freedom happiness and excitement we had those days. I surprisingly was very energetic. I wanted to take part in every single thing. Every sport, drama, societies and many many more.

Wow I really had a busy life. I still remember that we had to do a Shakespearean drama one day. Well I guess I was tall and dark i got to be the Romeo (oh yeah that's what we chose to act hmm old school) and some where in the show I had to do this sword duel. Well my acting is so outstandingly bad my friend who was the villain had to basically hold the sword and stick it herself. All because I kept on missing the target.

And then chores. One of my favorites. I use to sing in two three of them. what a feeling we get. All together singing one tune(off beat) and more than anything I participated them simply because I get to skip classes. Matter of fact the number of classes I actually attended for chemistry was less than 20. (ohh yeah)

Was a chatter box. I mean Girls have a lot to talk. And I was marked for this ability. Well I am proud to say this but I still have that ability popping here and there.

And the most perfect time is right after exams. We get to roam around the school. No classes and no restrictions till the next semester. Happy smiles every where singing dancing and playing games. Wow I really Cherise those memories.

Well I think I love and respect my school still :)

If only

If only I can just break free from this and say act feel what I really wanted, things would be so different and more complicated..

But... I am human i just have feelings that contradict my own feelings..

Damn so hard being human

Even harder being honest to yourself

Random thoughts on my way home..

Actually it’s not so random... Matter of fact it’s the only thought that I have each day. Yes how beautiful it is. So much colours and glamour spread all over, sharing the beauty and peacefulness to us, who are (may be job-less) to watch with the eyes wide open and mouths unclosed.

By looking at it I feel as if I am in heaven. By saying that I am not being poetic but it’s simply the feeling I get. Eye soothing colours. Blue, indigo, purple, yellow, pink white orange and many many colours. The view is simply breath taking.

When I see it I feel so lucky that I was born as a human and am able to appreciate its true beauty. Even though my route from office to home is, screeching cars, smoking lorries, three wheelers motor cycles, tired human beings, I just avoid resting my eyes on them. I just look up and notice the heavenly bravura SKY!!!

Well I am just thankful to the creator of this world for giving such a extra ordinarily beautiful site to mu eyes.


Well my camera didn't do the justice here... But still its so beautiful!!!

I sleep..

When stars are shining moon is smiling I sleep

When its dark and another world is bright I sleep

At rain, at mist summer winter hot and drought I sleep

When they laugh with happiness

When they scream of pain

I sleep

When you found your soul, or gave it to the devil

I sleep

Do not wake me

Egoism and coward-ness to face you

Are my sleeping tablets

So I sleep

Means of transport – Motor Cycle

I always wanted to own a CBR or Harley Davidson. Not that I know how to ride it but I thought it was kinda looks cool. Yet the funny part is apart from the fact that I do not know how to ride a motor cycle, all throughout my life I have never even gone in a motor cycle. I mean no one was kind enough to take me. Still it’s strange why I have this special thing about CBR and Harley Davidson.

However few days back, I was waiting for my transport at about 6 o’clock. There was major traffic. No vehicle that has four wheels could move. But just like the way water would go through a jar full of rocks, MOTORCYCLES found their own controvertible way to creep in and out of the traffic. And now I will get to the funny part. I was standing on the pavement. (I mean I can stand there right? Yes I can be a “stationery pedestrian” if a noun like that do exist) I was waiting for my vehicle to come. But what I saw was10 to 12 motorcycles charging their way towards where I was standing. Hmm I had to push my panic button. Why? Because I had no way to go and make way to the battalion of motorcycles. Although I was standing at the right place I had to take refugee inside a telephone booth. Well they passed and then I gave a sigh of relief and turned my head, to see more and more motorcycles have made their own way in the pavements (or is it motor-cycle-way?)

How close the motor cycle was to me....

However the traffic got viler. And I had to camp in the telephone booth. Suddenly something “much funnier” caught my eye. A three-wheeler (or the most annoying word I have ever heard “the tuk-tuk”) was nicely parked in the pavement (let’s not bitch about that now) and there was about five feet space and a motor cycle (chaly) was waiting for the colour light to turn green. Then another motorcycle tried to creep in between the tuk-tuk and the chaly, and this was not actually going in the correct direction but the opposite direction. Mind you this was a highway. And I have no clue how he was able to come from a different direction. Now that is a question

A motor cycle making his way through a three wheeler and a Chaly

However my motive was not to say what I don’t like about bike riders. I just felt that motorcycle is a convenient and fast mean of transport that most citizens take use of.

Say cheez....

Recently when my uncle who is an expert in cameras (all sorts) came for a visit he happens to bring a Nikon N70 with a 2x multiplier. Understand this is not that high tech and has up to 70mm zooming lens but for certain someone this was like a dream come true. So who took it in to her hand? Yesss me the “cat-curious me”. Well it was not the first time I discovered my love for photography and at the same time proved myself that there is so much to learn even to take a simple photograph. So far I have tried my hand in the 3.2 megapixel camera that comes with my mobile phone and have given some reasonable shots here and there. So when I let my hand touch “The N70” I was in love once again with whole world. So what was my target…aha the sky. And then flower buds. The bugs on the flower, Grass petals, ants on the wire. My own shadow. And even did some paparazzi shots on my brother and cousins. Well I was not really concentrating on the shutter speed; focusing, lighting conditions so on and so forth. However must say that it was quite a learning experience. Which I am hoping to be an expert at(well what do you know this is my year 2009 resolution)

As time passed by my uncle had to leave which means that I had to bid farewell to “my new love”. And went back to the reality of my Nokia 5610 camera... hey it’s not bad at all it does indeed a good job almost all the time.

Check out www.ran-neleei.blogspot.com and click on the post flower bud for my experience withe nikon n70 SLR camera