To office or the bull

I was on my way to office, to notice that there was a bull, seated with both two front legs were bleeding, obviously met with an accident in the morning. The creature was looking sad and hurt and a pail of water was next to him. Which it did not indicate in any way that it would have helped the creature at all. Lot of blood was on its body, and perhaps it was unable to move.
Well as all we being human with emotions running free, my colleagues who were in the office transport was giving their own assumption of the situation.

“some driver must have hit the poor thing…idiot does not even no how to driver..”

“these type of idiots should be punished…”

“Wonder who gave the license (driver’s) to them…”

“Must have happened in the morning… so then he ran away… selfish man…”

“ah did you notice the way a man was standing few feet away from the incident?...I think it’s he who have done it… did you notice the sly smile…IDIOT”


Well me being the observer was really amazed.

· How much we human pity the bull who was hurt?
· How some of us eat the flesh of it if the given incident is different?
· And how we assumed that a motor vehicle did made this creature to get hurt?
· How we tend to curse at people who we have not seen or heard of?
· And how much you get blamed for just standing there at a point of an incident?


And then let talk about me

I was not really in a hurry to work (I am one of the early comers :) ) yet I did not stop by and even tried to help the creature. But now I am blaming someone for criticizing the incident. And secondly lets say that I really got down and tried to help, what am I suppose to do? Who will I try to contact? And given the chance the owner of the bull was there? Will he welcome my help or will he feel hostile? Because he might feel that I am trying to own his bull. (its human nature not to trust another human, when it comes to your belongings)


All I know is there was a problem, I wanted to help but I did not. Just passed it and came back to my world of comforts. Am I human or what?

Falling for you..

To fall for you,
I tried hard not to
Yet I am weak
Standing next you
Listening to your breath and soul
Showing me the beauty of life
Asking me to smile with you
Can’t you see I am not doing so good?
I am falling for you
Alas, you are my best friend

Certain things are captured only as memories.. for a life time

As human beings, the greatest things we are capable of having, are memories. Happy sad and even memories of rather ordinary things. A Normal incident might be easy to forget. However the happy moment, even sad moments residues some where in our minds.
Also there are certain times that we see such magnificent structures of the Creator of the world. Yes I am just obsessed about the sky and can not really take my mind and heart in appreciating its wonderful colours and the art. Today i saw one such moment. I took my camera out tried to captured moment. The sun was blazing its glory, white clouds were swirling around. And a dark cloud just came and closed the sun forming the bright glowing silver line. Well when finally my camera switched it self that moment was over. Just occurred to me how i missed that moment yet how i remembered the details of it.
This made me think. The junctions of my life that I do not have photos or any tangible things to tell another person this really happened, yet memories... I have the memories.
Memories which I would like to share. Yet no one will really understand the true emotions that i have linked with them.

well Dumbledore please teach me how to extract my memories and bottle them so I can share them with others!!!

I just love my memories... good and bad

Old school

Sounds familiar? hmm yeah thought so

Watched "Who's line is it anyway?" hosted by Drew Carey and comedians (really talented) Ryan Stiles, Colin Mochrie, Wayne Brady and few more comedy actors playing the game-show. The jokes are so real and classy. Well currently I am really addicted to it.

One day these funny(I mean genuinely hilarious) guys enacted the 90's old school. It was pretty simple and really brought up how much we think certain phrases we used when we were schooling, certain rituals we thought were cool and happening back then are really not that cool any more. Well the scene was three "happening dudes" meet up, and they discuss the cool things they did. Well it was not really discussing cuz no one was saying any activity but say to each other

"man i so did wanna do that "YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN""

ohh yeah yeah I once did so and made it so real "YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN"

well the above quotes may not be exactly the same.but I got to emphasise that all did actually say to each other was "YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN" and non of them knew what they really mean.

When watching this it just reminded me of my school days. well not long ago I actually went to have education, to a school where all types of girls were having the same education. Well some of us did good and some of us get to face the bad side of life. Yet once in a while it reminds us how much freedom happiness and excitement we had those days. I surprisingly was very energetic. I wanted to take part in every single thing. Every sport, drama, societies and many many more.

Wow I really had a busy life. I still remember that we had to do a Shakespearean drama one day. Well I guess I was tall and dark i got to be the Romeo (oh yeah that's what we chose to act hmm old school) and some where in the show I had to do this sword duel. Well my acting is so outstandingly bad my friend who was the villain had to basically hold the sword and stick it herself. All because I kept on missing the target.

And then chores. One of my favorites. I use to sing in two three of them. what a feeling we get. All together singing one tune(off beat) and more than anything I participated them simply because I get to skip classes. Matter of fact the number of classes I actually attended for chemistry was less than 20. (ohh yeah)

Was a chatter box. I mean Girls have a lot to talk. And I was marked for this ability. Well I am proud to say this but I still have that ability popping here and there.

And the most perfect time is right after exams. We get to roam around the school. No classes and no restrictions till the next semester. Happy smiles every where singing dancing and playing games. Wow I really Cherise those memories.

Well I think I love and respect my school still :)

If only

If only I can just break free from this and say act feel what I really wanted, things would be so different and more complicated..

But... I am human i just have feelings that contradict my own feelings..

Damn so hard being human

Even harder being honest to yourself

Random thoughts on my way home..

Actually it’s not so random... Matter of fact it’s the only thought that I have each day. Yes how beautiful it is. So much colours and glamour spread all over, sharing the beauty and peacefulness to us, who are (may be job-less) to watch with the eyes wide open and mouths unclosed.

By looking at it I feel as if I am in heaven. By saying that I am not being poetic but it’s simply the feeling I get. Eye soothing colours. Blue, indigo, purple, yellow, pink white orange and many many colours. The view is simply breath taking.

When I see it I feel so lucky that I was born as a human and am able to appreciate its true beauty. Even though my route from office to home is, screeching cars, smoking lorries, three wheelers motor cycles, tired human beings, I just avoid resting my eyes on them. I just look up and notice the heavenly bravura SKY!!!

Well I am just thankful to the creator of this world for giving such a extra ordinarily beautiful site to mu eyes.


Well my camera didn't do the justice here... But still its so beautiful!!!

I sleep..

When stars are shining moon is smiling I sleep

When its dark and another world is bright I sleep

At rain, at mist summer winter hot and drought I sleep

When they laugh with happiness

When they scream of pain

I sleep

When you found your soul, or gave it to the devil

I sleep

Do not wake me

Egoism and coward-ness to face you

Are my sleeping tablets

So I sleep

Means of transport – Motor Cycle

I always wanted to own a CBR or Harley Davidson. Not that I know how to ride it but I thought it was kinda looks cool. Yet the funny part is apart from the fact that I do not know how to ride a motor cycle, all throughout my life I have never even gone in a motor cycle. I mean no one was kind enough to take me. Still it’s strange why I have this special thing about CBR and Harley Davidson.

However few days back, I was waiting for my transport at about 6 o’clock. There was major traffic. No vehicle that has four wheels could move. But just like the way water would go through a jar full of rocks, MOTORCYCLES found their own controvertible way to creep in and out of the traffic. And now I will get to the funny part. I was standing on the pavement. (I mean I can stand there right? Yes I can be a “stationery pedestrian” if a noun like that do exist) I was waiting for my vehicle to come. But what I saw was10 to 12 motorcycles charging their way towards where I was standing. Hmm I had to push my panic button. Why? Because I had no way to go and make way to the battalion of motorcycles. Although I was standing at the right place I had to take refugee inside a telephone booth. Well they passed and then I gave a sigh of relief and turned my head, to see more and more motorcycles have made their own way in the pavements (or is it motor-cycle-way?)

How close the motor cycle was to me....

However the traffic got viler. And I had to camp in the telephone booth. Suddenly something “much funnier” caught my eye. A three-wheeler (or the most annoying word I have ever heard “the tuk-tuk”) was nicely parked in the pavement (let’s not bitch about that now) and there was about five feet space and a motor cycle (chaly) was waiting for the colour light to turn green. Then another motorcycle tried to creep in between the tuk-tuk and the chaly, and this was not actually going in the correct direction but the opposite direction. Mind you this was a highway. And I have no clue how he was able to come from a different direction. Now that is a question

A motor cycle making his way through a three wheeler and a Chaly

However my motive was not to say what I don’t like about bike riders. I just felt that motorcycle is a convenient and fast mean of transport that most citizens take use of.

Say cheez....

Recently when my uncle who is an expert in cameras (all sorts) came for a visit he happens to bring a Nikon N70 with a 2x multiplier. Understand this is not that high tech and has up to 70mm zooming lens but for certain someone this was like a dream come true. So who took it in to her hand? Yesss me the “cat-curious me”. Well it was not the first time I discovered my love for photography and at the same time proved myself that there is so much to learn even to take a simple photograph. So far I have tried my hand in the 3.2 megapixel camera that comes with my mobile phone and have given some reasonable shots here and there. So when I let my hand touch “The N70” I was in love once again with whole world. So what was my target…aha the sky. And then flower buds. The bugs on the flower, Grass petals, ants on the wire. My own shadow. And even did some paparazzi shots on my brother and cousins. Well I was not really concentrating on the shutter speed; focusing, lighting conditions so on and so forth. However must say that it was quite a learning experience. Which I am hoping to be an expert at(well what do you know this is my year 2009 resolution)

As time passed by my uncle had to leave which means that I had to bid farewell to “my new love”. And went back to the reality of my Nokia 5610 camera... hey it’s not bad at all it does indeed a good job almost all the time.

Check out www.ran-neleei.blogspot.com and click on the post flower bud for my experience withe nikon n70 SLR camera