Tuesday, December 30, 2008
New Year Resolution
Not to be a boring person, to me specially
Do more exciting stuff
Be adventurous
Climb a real mountain
Watch the Sunrise in east cost
Wear white and be my base color for the wardrobe
Paint my room white
umm white my theme colour...
use less plastic
use recyclable and recycled products more often
eat less so i will indirectly save it for the others so I will loose weight :)
Read more
Write more
Think more
Sleep less
Sing in an audience even when there is nobody to listen
Dance madly and not care about the world
ACTUALLY be interested in my studies
Finish what I started
and have more realistic resolution like above for 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
its true what they say, spend at least one day with a 7 year old and 70 year old.. wow life is so simple..
Well I am not fighting to understand why I turned to be someone like this. Guess it’s a phase that I am going through discovering” who I am”?
Back to the 7 year old. All we did was, playing some kids games. Reminded me of my childhood where I was the privilege one to ride on somebody’s back. And now she is the privileged one. Damn I was tired after all the running, skipping circling and hide and seek we did. But still I was HAPPY and young. Yes felt like a young girl who knew the beauty of life. Thank you little one…
Friday, December 26, 2008
Life cycle of a relationship
Sounds like one who got heartbroken? Yeah I am. Some of us are not so lucky to be steady and ready with the first person you meet. What made me write this is not because I am still crying over spilled milk but as we are at the yearend I myself did a personal review on the year 2008. Learnt a good lesson guess I am thank full to them for that though the hurt might have forced me to hate them. Besides this is life, not everything comes in a silver tray. Now I know that for sure.
There is hope of a better year ahead. That’s the recommendation I received.
well 2009 you know what to do.... :)
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Upside down christmas tree
Or is it other way round? may be this is the corrcet way to grow a CHRISTMAS TREE
Who knows we are just following a set of rules given by others
and ways this is the history as taken from www.thegreenhead.com
The History of the Upside-Down Fir Tree: According to the Christmas Archives, "In the 7th century a monk from Crediton, Devonshire, went to Germany to teach the Word of God. He did many good works there, and spent much time in Thuringia, an area which was to become the cradle of the Christmas Decoration Industry. Legend has it that he used the triangular shape of the Fir Tree to describe the Holy Trinity of God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. The converted people began to revere the Fir tree as God's Tree, as they had previously revered the Oak. By the 12th century it was being hung, upside-down, from ceilings at Christmastime in Central Europe, as a symbol of Christianity."
Monday, December 22, 2008
what happened..and to happen
Ranting on the same thought
Heart beat stopped
Looked outside
Saw another light
Went close
Burnt again
Did learn the lesson?
Yeah may be
But hope exists
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Empirical proof of love – A Beautiful Mind
I watched A Beautiful Mind where the life story of John Nash, the Nobel Prize winner in Economics (1994) unfolds. Not going to give my view of the movie, yet want to share my fevorite scene
The following conversation if between John and Alicia Larde, when he wanted her to explain the love and commitment she had for him. Mind you he is a mathematician. The scene is acted by Russell Crowe (John Nash) and Jennifer Connelly (Alicia Larde)
Alicia: A proof? Verifiable data? Hmm mmm
Okay…
Well... How big is the universe?
John: Infinite
Alicia: How do you know?
John: I know because all the data indicate it
Alicia: But it hasn’t been proven yet?
John: No
Alicia: You haven’t seen it. How do you know for sure?
John: I don’t. I just believe it
Alicia: Mmm..
It’s the same with Love. I guess
Now, the part that you don’t know
Is it if I want to marry you?
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was touched by the scene
One day a friend of mine asked me what was it like to be in love? and i am still searching for the answer...
Friday, December 19, 2008
Today??? friday??? huh???
But I am not sad or unhappy about the year passed, cuz now I am much closer with my parents and kinda in peace with myself.
And the best part is I have become quite a mind reader so its kinda difficult for me to deal with people.. hahaha I know all are afraid of me, talk to me even and I sometimes purposely ignore the muscling gender…
Wellllll today is Friday… Was to meet up a friend and to go Christmas shopping… Though we have scanned all shops of Colombo still not satisfied for the fact that we have so much of time to kill… plan was cancelled and me still in office pretending to work when my boss insists on, me flying back to my nest.. “Come on man I love my job, I am soooo devoid of my life… please let me stay near my Oh-so-perzonal-computer and pretend to work my oh-so-brilliant-head-off.
Today is a Friday. My shopping spree was cancelled and sitting in front of Orlando Blooms and doing my thing (Okayyyyy its just the screen saver but still I can read him, yeah he like moi J ).
Ahhhh almost forgot.. It was Christmas deco timeeeee…. When I stepped into office (after a looong vacation sorta thing) found there were none…. So who stepped in… yeah me the oh-so-time-to-kill-doing-nothing me… the theme was “not spending your money due to Economics crises and still have the spirit” so we voluntarily got the day off and started cutting “recycled Envelopes” and made Christmas trees and hung them… (ahhh I am going to miss you guys, surprisingly but yeah I am)
Wanted to say how much I want to go out and go crazy at a day like this… but guess I am not that kinda person.. or may be I do not have friends and nobody likes me… oh may be I am so ugly that no guy likes me… or may be the economy is so s&^*5 that all the amusement arenas are closed since the cost cutting is taking over our lives that no credit cards are allowed and expenditure is more than the income… or may be its raining outside that and I can’t see oh hear it….or may be I am blind, deaf and dumb at the same time that I might as well not have a life..
But…..
ohhhhh who cares??? I kinda like my subtle moving life… and I am happy and happy… and I just let it go..
man I love Eric Clapton.. “Layla you got me off my feet…”
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Sadness
Not because you left me
Nor you are not there to make me feel all right
I am sad
For the love I had fir you
For the love that you never had for me
You never needed me like the way I did
All you did was, played your part in a theater
Yes, this is a selfish poem for you
For you left me oh so selfish
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Watching you ease me
Every time when I look up its something different. Something new and exciting. It’s as if I am getting to know someone new. I look up day night evening dawn anytime I feel that I need to. When I travel just walking in the garden, swimming (which happens rarelyL).
The night’s sky of cause was my favorite. Use to count starts, but never was able to finish as each minute pass a new one pops out. I am not good in reading start signs and the only one I can identify is the Orion, also known as “the hunter”. And that is also because it has very significant raw of three stars that represents his belt.
Then the day sky. Recent discovery of a new love. When the clouds fill the blue space, it gives such happiness to me. And that mood causes me to capture the moments. And I have photos taken each day. As much it has inspired me I thought of searching more info about clouds. Also a “thank you” should go to my friend who gave the initial idea.
There are types of clouds in different levels of the sky. They have different formations that act for different purposes. But I will touch only on their looks.
Stratus – spreads and covers a vast area
Cumulus – looks like small puffs
Altocumulus - Small puffy clouds that stay together
Altostratus – bit thicker than stratus and can cover the sun
Above 18,000 feet
Cirrocumulus – looks like small dots and spread in a vast area
Cirrus – looks like a bird art
And then there is
Cumulonimbus – rain clouds that spread from ground level up to 50,000 feet
If the naming of the clouds are bit trick the below grid will help you out
And if you want to read more
Well I just browsed through few sites and found the info. Might not be 100% true but I am willing to listen to any comment that you may want to make and the topic is open to discuss.
Till then……
Ahhhhhhhhhhh I just love watching the sky!!!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Crossing the road
Waiting, waiting and waiting
That man was not patient enough
Drew right past me.
She, with a child
Crossed without looking, both sides
They talking crossed,
And waved at the car
With smiles on their faces.
I am quite sure
The driver didn’t see that
Cuz he was too busy frowning
Cross, stop horn and cross
And I, still waiting waiting and waiting
Trying to figure out
What to f=do?
My mind just tripped off
Am I the driver?
Or waiting to cross the road?
Guess thats what I want
Once a friend asked me, what type of a person I was looking for. I went speechless. Downright speechless, I never thought how it was going to be. But all I know is when I meet that someone all going to be fine.
ahhhhhhhhh being toooo sentimental, but I a human
Monday, December 15, 2008
At a time like this
Have Confidence in you
If there is a person that you can rely on, most of the problems will fade away. And if you have the reliance on yourself no one can pull you back. Not even yourself.
Think like a champion
Every champion has their own ups and downs. But a true champion will never let one drawback hinder the path way to success. Constantly try the best and through failures you will find the light for the future.
Always be in alert
Things change and we have to be in alert to identify them and make plans to overcome the obstacles that may occur.
Be extra ordinary
We can succeed at a given task and all you will be is excellent. But how to be extra ordinary? Do not be afraid for change. Life is not always giving you a path that is smooth. But it’s always fun to ride on rough roads. So adopt o change and live it and love it.
To conclude this emphasizing on the fact that it’s a choice you make about life. Can be optimistic or pessimistic but YOU will have to live it
Friday, December 12, 2008
My guinea pig for experimental food
It was a house where I was the cook (oh no)
Most of the food was raw,
Days old and mom just throw.
But my income was low
Hand to use then so.
But being the good host
I always boast
How good my food was
Yet needed a guinea pig of cause.
Had one person looking at me
Saw the innocent eyes that gleam
“There you go. My own guinea pig”
I just fed him my master chef wonder dish.
With awe of wonder with trusting heart
He just ate it and wanted some more.
Mom just came by, saw my experiment
Gave a loud cry and rush him to the hospital
“A rotten tomato is not that bad
And I am quite sure that he should be glad”
To get a sister like me
Who consider him as a guinea pig
And what the heck
You owe that to me
Since you and my brother who was just three
A real life scenario. I am sorry malli. For what I have made you eat. And thank you for baring all my mischief. He actually was three and I was four J
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Traffic in Colombo
Before I begin this I must emphasis on the fact that I am not a person who knows how to drive a car and matter of fact not good in riding at least a bicycle. I always wanted to learn but it’s something like learning the violin for me. Though I love it so much I just can’t seems to concentrate on the minor facts such as shifting the gear hanging on to the wheel the breaks the lights the horn the car seat that is not right. So I gave up without actually trying it out. But 2009 resolution is to learn how to drive car safely and and so fast that you will be aghast :)
Traffic, as I mentioned before is something I meet on my way to work. Though I live off road to Colombo the place is known as a devils point when it comes to traffic. The driver (whom I admire for his patience and swearing that follows, yes early morning) go zig zag and comes in to a halt behind a queue of vehicles ready to charge forward.
Now this is the beauty of morning traffic. It gives me time to watch the citizen of Colombo in action. The van next to me is filled with school kids. They actual have so much to talk. Showing off their latest collection of Pokémon stickers and argue about the favorite super hero strengths.Pulling their hair screaming laughing. Reminded me of my childhood. Then there is a cute little girl looking at me with her big eyes. She is privilege to go in a CRV and was turning her head away from the food that her mom is trying to push into her mouth. I smiled at her and so she did. That was a moment we shared and we both knew that we will never meet again but that smile we shared made our lives different. Then the green lights came so we parted. I was heading to Colombo and was stopped by a check point. After all the necessary identification we were let to go. I actually said thank you, not because I am against or for the war but merely for the service they rendered and I always admire people who are honest at their job.
Came to the heart of Colombo, where you can identify with amount of carbon smoke ejecting from the vehicles and by the clouds thay form. We were moving quite fast today. 10 miles per hour. I do always say that this is fast if you are a Colombo rider. We were at a halt. Near a well known school. A place where our future compiling itself with tools and necessities. You see so many vehicles parked by the road. From our dream car to the motor cycle is carrying a parent or a gradient and the child. They were all going to the same school. Getting the same education. But different methods of transport. So we stared the ride and came into a place where most of the cooperates are gathering. They greet each other some looks so fresh in the morning some looks as if they didn’t sleep at all some seems to be in love with their work and some have lost their minds. I notice all this so carefully as we ride 5 miles per hour now. With all that observation I finally came to office.
Now the only night riding life I have. I do not go out in the night much. Ahhh okay not at all. However when I work till late, I get the rare moment of checking out Colombo, at night. I simply love it. With lights and colours and people hurrying to their nests make me sort of feel that I have a little moment in the Colombo night life. Then suddenly the vehicle stopped. Near the Colombo campus. Guess some one ”important” was passing by. The driver uncle (as we call him) started saying his extract of the day so I got plugged in to my mobile mp3 player. I just love my music. So we waited and waited and now it started raining. Can life be any more fascinating? As the rain started to progress they allowed the vehicles to go. But to go where? Due to the fact that rain drops have damaged our brain cells and also it flooded in most of the roads we started moving 4 miles per hour. I actually couldn’t see that much of people inside vehicles since it was dark. But I felt kind of comfy and safe inside the air conditioned vehicle. Loved the rain and how it drops slowly in the glass and how they shine like beautiful diamonds when the light reflects. I was actually having a good time. And I wish the vehicle to move really slowly. (Though there was no need to pray for it since we were moving reaaaaly slow). I was how pedestrian peril from the Hugh mud puddles and felt for them. Yet I loved the rain and this traffic (May be I am mean, but I was enjoying the moment). Then another van which was moving ahead of us broke. Right on the middle of the road. But I was amazed to see how people out of nowhere came into the rescue. Soon the road was cleared and we were free to go (4 miles per hour is the standard at that time). I reached home at 9.30PM with a nice feeling about the traffic in Colombo...
Change....
As I felt like I am trapped in a cage
I need a change
From all what I was engaged
I changed my room
Painted in pink and blue
Changed my cloth line
It was colourful and light
Changed my hair, changed my whole appearance
Changed my favourite TV channel
Changed what I read
Hoping to have a new vision
Yet, I felt down and sad
I felt so trapped inside
Sad sad I felt so bad
What changes to be done?
To all that I have
Waita’minute
What am I doing?
I have being changing the whole world
Isn’t it that I am to change my looking glass?
Now the world is better as I changed my inner self
And the world is much happier
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Planting tress
- Trees give us food (to satisfy our hunger to live)
- Trees give us flowers (beauty)
- Trees/plants are planted as to decorate the gardens (beauty)
- Trees helps us in the water cycle (one major contributor)
- Trees reduces the air pollution and help to purify the air
- Tree branches and the trunk are used to build houses and furniture
- Trees are used as medicine/ingredients for medicine
- Trees are used as cosmetics/cosmetics ingredient
- Trees helps in preventing soil decay
- Tress helps to play. E.g. The swings
I know that for a fact, because each morning on my way to work I go under a natural arch made by big trees that stands besides the Cumarathunga Munidasa Mawatha (or is it the Thurston road???). During that few seconds all my worries are faded and Ï fly like an eagle, and yeah believe me :)
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Making your Point “true”
The new hobby is”Arguing” or somehow “making your pint true”. Its fun and you learn views of the other opponent/s you may not really feel that person in incorrect but its rather fun to see how a person counterattack for the words you throw at him/her. I must emphasis on the fact that most of the points I try to convey are my own thoughts and judgments of the given subject.
My colleagues, friends are the victims. The topics are rather casual and we discuss (Argue is more appropriate) on many areas. As a true fighting spirited representative from the feminine gender I never give up on where I stand. We hatchet each other’s views and end up (most of the time) without a proper conclusion of whatever we talked about. However when the heat is over and we are back to this world of peace and harmony I actually sit and think about the facts that we came up with and take note of the situation with a wider view. And hence I must point out that is one good thing about arguing.
And what have I learnt so far? Simple it’s that what I believe in a certain issue is not the same as the view of another person. Mainly because we see the world in different levels. Yet I have the right to put forward my view on the table and make (the puppet) dance with strings controlled by me. And so does my opponent. Yet both the puppets we try to dance are with strings attached. When not handled carefully we there is a chance that the strings will get entangled, which will not be a entertaining show to the audience, but merely a laughing stick scenario which nobody will take a notice of.
So how to handle the puppet show (the argument) properly? Be comprehensive with the argument.
I read books, newspapers, tabloids (yup they too), blogs and so the list grows. And sometimes perceive how certain individuals argue on variety of topics. Intellectual to CRAP. They bring out facts and figures and make into a comment and suggestion. When you are bringing up facts, the validity of the facts are a golden rule. As you can not alter facts and figures. (Oxford dictionary 7th edition; Facts and figures- Precise details) Even though this is the case certain people do deviate from this and try to prove their point through own comments and assumption which sometimes make a fool out in the field. They should understand that just because they see 9 out of 10 heads d=heads nodding in agreement does not mean the point is correct. Our eyes are made in such a way that we can see less that 180° and we actually have to make an effort and turn our head to see the full 360° view and even more effect to see the whole globe around us.(Still we might have not covered more dimensions)
Getting back to my new hobby; I never was like this. I used to nod in agreement for anything came on my way. NOT because I was “blond” but due to the fact that I was not thorough with the subject of argument and thought the other person will try to guess me as indecent person. But then ä little birdie taught me that my view of the subject can make a different too. Hence here I am singing “
“Getup stand up – stand up for your right” Bob Marley 1973
And to those who come to argue with me let me remind you one phrase “when you fight with a pig in the mud, the pig actually enjoys it “and yeah I love mud baths, it’s good for the skin.
Friday, November 21, 2008
How a Flower came in to Life
26th November 2008
Got/stole a flower bud from the reception lobby. Let it grow and watched the process each day. Then could not come to work for few days and saw the death of the flower. Life cycle of a flower. Not meaning to point anything about it. Just a mere incident in life. I guess the flower just had a good death. We all look for a good life to have a good death.(inspired by the book written by Ralston Saul - On Equilibrium, The Six qualities of the new humanism. Still half way through reading it)
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Communicating via the MOBILE PHONE
Urghhhhhh I forgot why I started writing this (and I keep on forgetting why I was born and who care when I forget what I was going to say), as I was saying earlier I was feeling really bored, stressed and annoyed, sad, contempt down and drowning in sea of unhappy thoughts a flash light just brighten my brain. I thought of paying a visit to my dear dear friends. And I must emphasis the fact that I can start chatting and there can never be an end. And if I am in correct mood you will barely get to talk at all.. (Ah dear friends please bare that with me… what to do I am being meJ). So I got up, started walking looking for a innocent victim to with my chatting ability. So I peeped into the nearest cubical. She was on a call (official!!!). So I went to the next, he was about to make a call, so I just passed him and came out from my division. Looked around and noticed how much we are capable of doing a “job done” only by talking over that phone (Yes the next department was busily speaking over that phone)
So came to different section on the floor, where my friend was busily texting someone at a rate. Didn’t want to disturb her. Then A loud noise shock me and was happy as this means I can finally join this group to have a chat. But when I by that place the site was not so heart pleasing at all, All of them was busily chatting away on the phone and guess what, they are using “call conferencing” to chat with a friend who was not there. OH GOD!!!
So what’s wrong with this world? Why are we hooked on to this small piece of equipment, can’t we see much this small gadget has dominated our lives.
Yes I was lonely again in a room filled with people. But at least I got something to think about and put down my “Me Thinks” like this. At the first stage of human evolution we used to communicate by signaling and sound. Like waving the hand, grunting, growling and so on. So gradually this turned in to sounds with some meanings forming letters to words and thereafter a whole sentence that was consisted with correct spelling Grammar and meanings for us to understand each other correctly. Also writing ability came in to the picture hence we wrote down what we feel and/or things we should remind ourselves. As the human nature was to reach more than what we have, we stared to reach out of our reach. So snail mail was introduced (Now its snail mail but it was the fastest and assured way of travelling news) Print media also was a hit. And somewhere down the line a wonderful phenomena, transmitting by waves was discovered. The radio was found. But all who loves that voice wanted to see them for real. So the television was introduced to us. Also during the same period with radio signaling Mr. Graham bell (the accuracy of that in not guaranteed by me as I have seeing it is rather doubtful) found the telephone. So all of these discoveries, invention one of us wanted to communicate “wireless”, hence the mobile phone was born. From a device that managed to kill-someone-with, now we have mobile phones that can be mistaken to a match box. The wonderful divine gift to the human sometimes makes us forget that we are human. This is not done directly but with the entire C%^* like globalization syndrome that many of us are facing the mobile phone plays a big part of it. First we stared chatting over the 2G technology and the text messaging(Short Message Service) was introduced making us and addictive generation (I was, but thank GOD I do not find it interesting anymore). General Packet Radio Service introduced, and the mobile communication synchronized with the internet. Now we are in the period of video calling where in simple terms 3G and/or3.5G. This is specifically used at corporate premises to hold meeting and so on.
Likewise data is transmitted and communicating through technology is occurred every corner at a rate. But have we all forgotten how it was before all this. We actually have forgotten to say HI to some of our friends. Sometimes simply because we are busy or since so many methods to communicate are available that we take it for granted. The simple keeping in touch is taking a new level of minding-your-own-business or leave-me-alone phase. Lovers do not write letters filled with their love and feelings. Those Romantic letters was exchanged only between our grandparents??? Parents are not advising their children on how to face life. Mr. Jawaharlal Nehru wrote letter of Life to his daughter Indira Ghandhi on how the man evolve and how he overcome obstacles. These letters are still inspiring those who want to have a new insight to life.
My questions are
What will happen to us?
What are we going to give the generation that comes henceforth?
Will they blame us or become more inhuman than we are?
Don’t worry be happy is what we can do for the time being. Well I must conclude now as I am getting a call to my mobile. Finally somebody REMEMBERS me !!!